My husband and I have been talking about lately about where we are in life and where we want to be. It’s confusing. Wild. Frustrating. Full of possibilities. Annoying. We know what we want, what our hopes and dreams are, but figuring out a path to get there is the hardest part, at least for us. We simply refuse to just make money, pay bills, and die. Most people would say that’s just how it goes, but unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) we’ve both lived the other side of the coin. Both of us grew up up with dad’s who essentially worked for themselves, which obviously comes with it’s own set of challenges, and yet they were their own bosses.
And I guess that’s what we’re trying to do.
We have a bucket list as long as my arm. We want to build tiny houses and cedar hot tubs, go boating for months at a time. Go to Thailand, and then maybe hop on a flight to Ireland and who knows where else, and not worry about when we have to be back. Volunteer. Road trip. Adopt like six dogs (me).
Is this even attainable? Who knows. But we’re gonna try. God gave us hearts for adventure, getting out of the box, and we want to live out the desires that Jesus placed in our hearts.
So maybe people will say that we’re crazy. Or irresponsible. Or whatever. But really, I’m not ready to settle down and commit (except to my amazing husband/partner and crime of course) no matter what people assume or say about where we should be.
Working is essential, important, and good. We both value hard work and good work ethic, but at the same time we’re not going to apologize for having goals outside of having a career and making all the money and paying all the bills and only having time for all the adventures after we’re old and tired.
I honestly want nothing more than for my husband to be thriving. To get to see his aspirations become reality. Because if you don’t know him, he’s a dreamer. He’s passionate. He works so hard and I’m so proud of him. All he wants is what God wants. He has so many amazing and creative endeavors and he never lets go of them. And it drives me crazy that I can’t just give him a million dollars and most importantly all the free time he could possibly want and say “Go for it, whatever you want to do first.”
We’ve had only a glimpse of what is possible when work and free time are in balance. Lately for some unforeseen reasons that has been nearly impossible for us to achieve.
So, we pray, we keep trusting our sweet Jesus and savior, we work hard, and do our darnedest to create opportunities for getting away and doing those things we’re always talking about.